Sembreak 2013 Highlights

I'm a terrible blogger... I can't manage my own time even if I'm not doing anything. I'm sorry guys but I won't be making any promises anymore. HAHAHAH Here are some of the things that I did over the break and I'm quite proud of myself. I did a lot of stuff that I thought I'd never do...and it was worth it! 

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So, since you all know that I am a couch potato my sembreak will not be complete unless I finish a series or two. For this year's sembreak, I only finished 1 series and I chose to go back to the basics. I watched F.R.I.E.N.D.S.! Finally!! HAHAHA 

Basically, it's all about a group of friends who live in the same apartment/building/neighborhood together. They see each other almost day to day and they have been through a lot together. This show really captures what friendship is really all about. 

I waited for a long time to watch this and I finally did and guess what? Just like every FRIENDS fan, "I got off the plane" made me cry... a lot of times. (I watched it over and over.) After finishing the ten seasons, I felt sad that I had to watch it again. 

Finishing it felt like I lost my own friends.. HAHAHA! For those who haven't watched this, please do. It'll really make you feel warm and fuzzy all over. Not to mention crazy... you'll be laughing by yourself once you start to watch!

I don't wanna spoil anything so I'm just gonna stop here.

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After a whole week of staying at home watching FRIENDS, I had a reason to go out. I made sure that during the sembreak, I need to hangout with one of my fave people in the word. Who else other than Keabelles herself! HAHAHA 

We weren't really planning on spending too much, so we just went to the my favorite thrift shop in Katipunan. After that we went out to get dinner at Derf's! :-)

After that we went back to my dorm to take these pictures. HAHAHAH

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Before the first semester ended, I planned on ordering a customized sticker for my laptop and so I did. I paid as soon as possible and sent the design to the owner and she said that it'll be shipped in a week. I was too excited for it that I think I jinxed its shipping date. It arrived only last Monday and it wasn't what I wanted. The design looked sucky but I had no choice, I had to do something to it so that my money wouldn't be wasted and this is how it turned out:

"amor deliria nervosa" is from the Delirium trilogy, try reading it friends!!!!

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I go to church every Sunday but I've never had the chance to get to know that people the same age as me and I thought I'd never had the chance but fortunately...no. I was invited to perform in a play for our church's anniversary. I was hesitant at first because I was uncomfortable being with people I don't really know but this time, I just had to do it for myself and for God. O:-) hihi

I usually just stay at home all day watching series in my room cause that's what I like to do. I thought it was going to be hard but I got used to the fact that I had to dress up and actually look presentable in front of people. I had to practice for days and I'm very proud that I managed to get through it. Sacrificing a lot of my time and effort really paid off!

Well of course, to be able to get through with it, I had to have reasons to go to every single rehearsal so I found myself a little eye candy. HAHAHA (Sorry, Lord) He's been in our church since I can remember but I never really noticed him til the rehearsals. He's super nice and TALL (darn it, my type of guy) but here's the thing - HE'S IN A RELATIONSHIP. Here's another one... THEY'VE BEEN TOGETHER FOR ALMOST 4 YEARS...

Okay, it was just a happy crush anyway....so hehe

I loved the experience and I got to meet new people! I'm pretty sure I want to do it again!

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A week before the start of classes, I had a job in school wherein I enlist people in their classes and I get paid! First, I just applied for the job so that I wouldn't have to worry about completing my service hours during the second sem but it turned out better than I expected.

It was difficult at first not knowing anyone (since most of them knew each other already) but I made friends with a few and they were really nice! As the days passed, I felt as if I wasn't working anymore. It felt like being with your friends and you're all doing something together which made it a whole lot better!

I love being part of this community and I'd like to work with them all again! Plus the experience was definitely worth it!

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 October 31st, I went to Vikings with my family to celebrate his 15th birthday. My brothers eat a lottttt so it was a perfect way to celebrate his special day! 

Yes, he's 4 years younger than me and YES I AM SMALLER THAN HIM. I'M SORRY  BUT I AM PROUD OF MY HEIGHT!

So there's my semestral break. I think I spent it well, I just wish that every sembreak was like this one. How about you guys? What did you do during your breaks? I would love to hear all about it!

wuv wuv,

Kaye

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Hi friends!! HAHAHA I'm gonna show you a sneak peek of what I'll be doing this sem break! Hopefully, I can start posting a lot more often starting next week. :-)

Here it is!! I'll be "sort of" studying how to fashion design. I've downloaded tons of books for this (taking a legit course is a wee bit expensive).

Okay, why am I doing this you ask? That's because I've always wanted to design my own dresses ever since and so here I am. 

Sometimes I "design" (HAHAHA feeling) some of my dresses and since my tita and lola are both good at making clothes, they make them come to life. Here's one. 

Well it's not purely MY design, I based it on some of the dresses that I see from a few of my favorite boutiques. After that, I showed my drawing to my tita, she asked me to choose which fabric to use and then she took care of the rest. It's so fun!!

So there, I'm gonna try to show you one or two my "designs", if that's what frustrated amateur designers (like me) call them HAHAHA :-) 

Talk to you guys soon!

Kaye xx

Freedom

It's finally our my sembreak, I'm so happy! After months of studying and isolating myself from the world I'm finally free! I know it's temporary, but three weeks of freedom is good enough for me. I'm a little bit worried about my grades this sem even though, but I studied hard! as in! I barely saw and barely went out with my friends and I'm not used to it. Oh well, I did my best to get good grades, I guess it's all up to Him now. :-)

So, I started my freedom with food (of course). The U.P. Town Center near in Katipunan just opened last week and I've always wanted to visit the place 'cause my friends told me that it's filled with new and interesting restos (pagkain na naman HAHAHA). I went there earlier with Ate Jamie, my roomie, 'cause we wanted to try the food from Casa Verde.

Casa Verde is located on the second floor of the town center, they serve American Cuisine and their servings are huge! American-sized talaga! For around 250 bucks each we got this huge platter of chicken and fish (it's quite cheap for the taste plus the size). While we were eating it started to rain and that's when we saw the faulty parts of the town center. The rain was pouring so hard that the place was almost flooded. We couldn't go home yet 'cause we couldn't find a cab (because of the rain, hay) so we just decided to go get some dessert.

I already knew that there was a Vanilla Cupcake Bakery in the town center so I suggested that we should just eat dessert there until the rain stops. I've always been a sucker for colorful and unique cupcakes that I just had to buy and satisfy my cravings! I also bought cupcakes for my parents there as a gift for their 20th anniversary tomorrow. <3

So for those of you who haven't tried Vanilla Cupcake Bakery, you should! Their cupcakes are delicious and beautiful at the same time. Once you see their store, you'll surely want to go inside! It's like going inside Willy Wonka's factory (only girlier)! :-)

Just extra information: Their cupcakes are sold at around 85 to 140 bucks each! Go ahead and try! You won't regret it. :-)

Here are some of the pictures!

Their store is pretty! It will surely catch your attention even if you're just passing by the place.

Plus, they have these nice chairs that'll make you feel like you're sitting on a princess throne!! HAHAHA

There we go! How about you guys? How did you start or how do you plan to celebrate you first day freedoms?!

Kaye xxx

Take risks with me

As human beings, almost all of us have this defect of wanting to love and be loved, and I have to admit that I'm guilty, too of that.

I just finished reading a trilogy lately, as I have told you in my previous post, and it changed me. Not the type of change you normally feel after attending a three-day retreat that usually lasts only for a week or two. It's the kind of change that makes you realize how much time you've been ignoring and taking for granted the things that are most important.

There was a time in my life when I loved and was loved by someone and back then I thought that I could never be happier. I had someone to talk to from the moment I woke up until I went to bed. I had someone to tell I love you for at least more than five times a day. I had someone to call, to laugh with and to cry on to anytime. Someone who understood me and listened to me every time. Then I lost that someone, and it felt like it was the end.

It didn't feel nice to be alone, to have no one to love, to have no one to text good morning and good night every time. I always had a hard time getting out of bed during the first few weeks. All I wanted to do during those times were to sleep and listen to sad music.....which made everything worse. I think that's what most people do when they're hurt - they try to hurt themselves more. They want to feel the pain so that they could cry it out of their systems because it numbs them a little. I cried, too, of course. I cried when I had the chance to cry without anybody seeing me or telling me that they told me so. I cried before I went to bed, after waking up, and while taking a bath. I cried on the dining table and in church. I cried and cried until I got tired of it and then came one morning, I woke up and felt that I was happy, even if I poured my heart out the night before. I felt happy and I knew I was.

It's never easy losing someone, but there's always something to be thankful for in everything bad that happens to us. I'm thankful that I lost that someone way back then. Back when the reasons were still too immature and shallow, and now I'm seriously laughing at myself for being over-dramatic. I was so young and in-love but I'm glad that I experienced it - that young love thing. Now, I can proudly say that I was wrong then for loving only the the people around me. I was wrong for loving only the people and the things that I thought were the most important. I was selfish two years ago for having loved only the people who I thought loved me back and the things that I thought I needed the most.

The book I read was all about love. It was set few years in the future in a dystopian world where love is considered a disease. The people see love as something harmful and that they have managed to create a cure for it so that they wouldn't be able to feel it any more. They would not be able to love and to hate anything or anyone. Some people might like the idea of it but it's a lot of peoples worst nightmare - a world without love.

Now that I've been happily single for a long amount of time, I think I'll be staying like this for a lot more years. Not being stuck with someone has changed my feelings and attitude towards almost everything. I used to think about my marriage all the time, thought about my children's names and where we'll live. I was a bit pathetic back then but it's all part of growing up I guess. Now that I've learned to become more independent, I don't usually think of planning my "romantic future" that much. One friend of mine told me that it'll come at the right time and moment, you have to stop looking for it 'cause that'll only higher the chances that who you found isn't the right one. You just have to wait and wait and I've put her advice to heart. Not being in a relationship has helped me think clearly and realize all the things that I have done wrong and the things that I should be doing instead. It helps you know your priorities and appreciate the world around you, the things you have and the people who love you. It'll even change your perspective about love itself, in a good way, of course.

Lately, I've learned to love a lot of things, ideas, people and I always keep falling in love with them. I tried to listen to different genres of music and books (you know...broadening my horizons) and I found out that I had different interests, too. I watched a lot of series - funny ones, detective stories, medically-related ones and I enjoyed most of them. Because of that, I've come to know myself even more. I now have an idea of my likes and dislikes and I'm a lot more confident now. I tried meeting new people and maintained a good relationship with them. I started to value everything I had before I even lose them.

Now for this love thing, nobody ever said that love should only be felt between two human beings. You can choose to love whoever and whatever you want to and I'm telling you now that nothing's wrong with that. Nothing's also wrong with loving too much, walang mawawala sa 'yo pag nagmahal ka ng sobra. You'll be blessed a lot more for loving more. According to The Beatles, "And in the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make". You will get the love you deserve, always remember that. Also, you'll never run out of love, it's impossible, so give love to others even if they hurt you because it is the right thing to do and I swear from experience that it'll make you feel a lot better. Don't fight anger with anger instead fight anger with love.

And another thing, don't stress too much about looking for your Mr. or Ms. Right because they're just around the corner. Six degrees of separation remember? God has everything planned for all of us, especially you! Don't look for love if you can give it. There are a lot of things and people in this world who need your love today more than your special someone.

Just think of it this way... right now that you don't have someone to give your heart to, God or even the universe has given you the chance to share your heart to someone else. This is the time that you give back what you have received for it will always be replaced by something much better than what you deserve. There may be times when giving and sharing love to others will be hard but take that as a challenge to make yourself better. Use this time to love and understand yourself more. Use this time to take risks and discover new ideas. Take this time to do whatever it is that you want to do as long as you're not stepping on anybody (figuratively.. and literally).

And if you have someone special now, you should be thankful. There are a lot of people out there who are longing to have what you have. Sometimes it may feel like it's not right, like there something wrong and when that happens, breathe and get out of your room. Be alone for a while and take time to appreciate everything that you have. Think about all your blessings and make yourself happy. Smile, listen to music and put the volume up. When you're happy, that's when you try to think about what's wrong. Don't let your emotions take over, you will regret it. Chill out and love. Whatever decision you make, do it for you, not for anyone or anything else. Just remember that if it's for you then it's for you but if it's not then.. let it be. God has better plans for you and your love.

Love is all around. So feel and embrace it.

Let it flow through every part of your soul.

Don't overthink.

Hug people.

Hug yourself.

Tell everyone you love them.

Tell yourself, "I love you" for you should.

Say "I love you" out loud.

Put yourself out there.

Take risks this time.

Take risks with me.









Thank you for a year of happiness and warmth! More years to come! Love you all!

Kaye XXXXXOOOOOXOXOXOXOXO

Stuff I Need to Buy for 2013

I've been saving up money for some of the things that I'll have to buy myself. My parents don't approve of buying me stuff that I don't really need and I understand that which is why I usually buy and pay for my own things.....like my phone. Anyway, here's a list of the stuff that I plan to buy before this year ends!

1. 1 TB or 500 GB Western Digital Hard Drive

PRICE: PHP 3,000.00 - 4,000.00 (depending on the memory)

I really need this. I don't want my laptop's memory full because it'll just slow it down. Plus, I have tons of songs and TV series!! I need to store all of them somewhere, they're too precious.

2. White Keds Champion Sneakers

PRICE: PHP 1,700.00 - 2,000.00

I love Keds and they're beautiful! have one in teal and one in all-black and I just need to have them in white!!!

3. MAC Matte Lipstick  in Ruby Woo

PRICE: ± PHP 1, 000.00

I am in love with lippies! Lip balms, lip sticks, lip creams.. anything 'cause it's the only type of make up that I know how to apply. Red lipsticks are my weakness and I do my best to buy the reds that I like the most. I found out about MAC's Lippie in Ruby Woo when I was looking through my favorite fashion blogger's article and it looked beautiful I just had to own one!

4. Instax Mini 8 Camera (Black of White)

PRICE: PHP 4,700.00 - 5, 000.00

I've always wanted a polaroid camera but my parents won't buy me one, so I'm buying one for myself instead! I know that a polaroid camera isn't really cheap but it makes each photograph special..you know, the thrill of waiting for it to show up after it goes out of the camera. I think it's special.

5. Waffle Maker

PRICE: PHP 1, 000.00 - 2, 000.00

Waffles are one of my favorite comfort foods and I want to wake up every morning knowing that I can easily whip up one with my very own waffle maker. I'm not really a good cook but I'm pretty sure I can make my own waffle..."safely" with this.


HAHAHA so there's my list. Here's to hoping that I get to buy all of them! I'll update you guys each time I get to buy any of the five. What about you guys? Do you have lists, too? :-) Good evening!!!

Kaye xxx

oops

I'm so sorry guys but I think I won't be able to post about the Bataan trip because the blasted SD card got corrupted. I feel so sad right 'cause the place is breathtaking! You guys should've seen it. But I'll still do my best to try to recover the pictures, I just don't know if that's even possible. :-( Love you all!

I hate breaking my promises. :-(

Here I go again!

Hi guys!! It's been a long time since I made my last ukulele cover showing my face =)) I needed to catch my breath before I start studying again, so I did a cover of Brave by Sara Bareilles!

Please watch it if you the time! Thanks so much! 

Kaye xx

Poems that helped me throughout college

I’m very fond of reading literature (not counting academic books, I find those difficult to read HAHAHA especially when I’m not interested in the subject matter). Since I was in grade school, I’ve been reading a lot of books from the classics to the most recent ones. Some of my favorite authors are Jane Austen, Lauren Olive, J.K. Rowling, Chuck Palahniuk, Sir Arthur Conan Doyle and a lot of other great authors! But of course, I didn’t only read books, I also read poems. Lots of them. I even managed to remember a few of my favorites - the ones that had a very huge impact on me and I’d like to share some of my favorite lines from my favorite poems to all of you.

1. How Do I Love Thee by Elizabeth Barret Browning

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.

2. Invictus by William Ernest Henley

It matters not how straight the gate
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate,
I am the captain of my soul.

3. Sonnet 18 by William Shakespeare

Shall I compare thee to a summer’s day?
Thou art more lovely and more temperate:
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer’s lease hath all too short a date:

4. i carry your heart with me by E.E. Cummings

i carry you heart with me (i carry it in
my heart) i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)

5. O Captain! My Captain! by Whalt Whitman

O Captain! my Captain! our fearful trip is done,
The ship has weather’d every rack, the prize we sought is won,
The port is near, the bells I hear, the people all exulting,
While follow eyes the steady keel, the vessel grim and daring;

Bum Life Indeed

Bum. What’s a bum? Well if you haven’t an idea what it is, I’ll give you an overview.

According to my laptop’s dictionary:

Well, that hurts...

I don’t want to be mean but my roomie is one heck of a bum. She quit her job just months ago just because she had a row with the people in her office...and that she wants to rest? She's quit her job for two consecutive times now and didn’t even last a year in both. I don’t know what’s going on with her or if she’s experiencing problems at home. When I ask whether she wants to apply to another job all she says is that “Yeah, I will. After a few months.” Now she's broke because she just bought a new laptop (care of her mom). She still asks money from her parents because as I have said, she doesn’t have a job to provide all her wants and needs... and she's got a WHOLE LOT OF WANTS and I find this quite annoying.

Okay, I know that I’m talking way ahead of myself. I’m just a student and I haven’t experienced working yet but I want to, though. I want to work already so that I can take my parents anywhere they want. I want to show them that all the money that they had spent on me was worth it. I don’t want to put all their hard work to waste. I want to make my parents proud and happy. I don’t want to be a bum. Yes, I haven’t experienced working but I’ve seen my parents work and I'm pretty sure they aren't bums. They try to finish a lot of things as much as they can so that they can earn enough money to provide for our needs. I know it’s wrong to compare my parents to my room mate since my room mate doesn’t have a family yet but still, by now she should at least try to plan out the things that she’ll be needing by that time that she gets her own family. In my opinion, I think that once you’re already capable of working, you shouldn’t ALWAYS ask for food allowance from your parents (well, maybe if you’re still kind of new to working), it's just not right. You should be the one treating them into restaurants and taking them somewhere else that they’ve always wanted to go, and even if you can't afford the most luxurious type of way to treat you parents, just taking them out for dinner at you family's favorite restaurant would easily put a smile on their faces. And I'm pretty sure it'll warm your heart.

Going back.

Now she’s here in our dorm, lying on her bed and sleeping again. For Pete’s sake, how does one sleep for more than 10 hours a day? That’s too much. More than 8 hours of sleep is not even healthy for a normal person. I get headaches and migraines whenever I sleep for more than 7 hours. I can’t just lie down all day and do nothing but scroll my way down to the very last of my Facebook new feed or my Twitter timeline. That would suck big time, man. It’s such a waste of life.

I for one am not planning to be a bum and even if I wanted to, I think I’d be having a hard time being one. I'd rather be the one who works and makes a change than to be someone who does not work and just waits for the change to happen.

Stuck inside

It’s been raining since Friday night and it’s not getting better. I’m pretty safe here in my dormitory and I’m quite sure that my family at home is, too since we don’t get much flood there. Of course, due to the weather there are no classes today and the sad thing about it is that I can’t go out. It’s impossible to watch a movie, or eat somewhere with my friends because of the situation outside. The rain’s pouring harder than ever and the wind is super strong, there might even pieces of wood or shards of glass going around. I hope it stops as soon as possible, though. It’s not fun to see people being stranded outside vulnerable to almost everything. I’m worried for the stray animals without shelter and for the depressed men and women without homes. The government should do something about that.

Well as you can see, I’m blogging now because I have none to do. I’ve finished my lab reports and I don’t have exams this week (I all took them last week). Some people would probably suggest that I advanced study but that’s not really my thing and it doesn’t work well for me. I easily forget the things I have studied and that's the reason why I prefer studying 2-3 days before only. I don’t want to be a crammer and a procrastinator but it’s what works best for me… I think.

It’s dark here in my dorm because we’re sort of inside a building and I like it. It lies about the world outside. You won’t know what time it is or if there’s still daylight on the streets. I feel safe and secure when I’m inside but it makes me feel ignorant as well. All my roomies are here with me also surfing away with their laptops ‘cause we have nothing else to do. We all have mugs on our table filled with chocolate-flavored Nesquik, we’re like a family living in our own home.

Geez, I’m hungry. Wish there was some way to get to CBTL, I’m craving for their spicy tuna pasta. Maybe I’ll check later if I can go there. Anyway, what’s up with you guys? How’s the weather in your place? If it’s as bad as it is here please do your best to stay warm. Remember to charge all your gadgets while there’s still electricity because I have this feeling that it’s going to be cut off later.

Stay indoors and enjoy this time with your families! Wear sweatshirts and drink chocolate milk. Give time to love and be loved. Take care everyone!


Kaye x

why i love my family

What a rainy Sunday! Too bad we couldn't spend it outside 'cause we were all too lazy to go out of the house. It's very gloomy but we still tried to have fun. :-)

That's me with my dad and my uncle!

Going chipmunk with my favorite uncle hihi

With mothergoose!

throwing a few frog faces here and there...

it is just me or does my mom look like an angry gremlin? hahaha

With my mom and my uncle!

Don't we look gorgeous?

But of course, my mom and I managed to snap some decent-looking ones..

Then I took a few snaps of myself.. you know... just making sure that the camera's working properly..

Sorry for the vanity!!! HAHAHAHA i love all of you!

Kaye xxx

Psyched

Good afternoon, friends!!! It's been raining all day and I don't like it. :-( Rain makes me feel bad sometimes but I don't know how and why. Anyway, I have to share something to all of you guys - my blog's first anniversary is near!!! Woohooo which is why I put some sort of counter thingamajig to update you guys when it'll be. I don't what I'm gonna do yet on that day but I'll really really try to do something for all of us.

My blog's anniversary is going to be celebrated on the day when I made my first ever blog post and that is on the 28th of August. I'm so excited for this 'cause I'll be doing this for the first time and I literally have no idea what people usually do on their blog's anniversary. I'll try to research around and I guess all of you will just have to wait and see.

I'm so psyched!!! Hope all of you are having a mighty fine day. Stay warm and stay in!

Kaye x

dinner is always a good idea

Last July 29, my friends and I went to EDSA Shang for dinner. It was only supposed to be a barkada dinner but since our friend just recently celebrated her birthday, she spotted for us all. We couldn't believe it, of course, since it was to expensive but then again, who wouldn't want to eat in a buffet for free? Right?

We went to HEAT that night, a buffet restaurant which normally charges around PHP1,500 - PHP1,600 per person but since there was a promo for groups of five and up, we only had to pay half the regular price. It was still expensive but it's better than paying more.... Do I sound like a cheapskate to you? HAHAHA

We didn't take photos of the food though 'cause we thought that it was too...that's the job of the people in Instagram. HAHAHAH Our job was to eat, and devour and laugh and eat until we couldn't eat anymore. We were almost complete that night except for one who had a birthday dinner for his granddad. He totally missed a lot but that didn't stop us from taking photos of ourselves, of course. It was a special day and it was an obligation to take photos. We rarely take photos so please understand the sudden dash of vanity you're about to see.

Almost 3 years of friendship and still counting!!!! Can't even wait for the dinners when we're all working already. HAHAHA

My favorite set of girls. No dramas and anything, just love. That's why I love them. We were a bit under-dressed for Shang though. 

This is Mia and she is one of people I love the most!!!! Look, her braces are gone! 

With the birthday celebrant, Kat. She owns that polaroid the we used, and I'm very thankful for having her as a friend. Oh, I can see my tonsils from hee...

This is Theo and he looks high here but he really isn't. I love this picture though 'cause it looks really funny. 

My friends and I love food so much and I think that that's what brought all of us together. I'm very thankful that God has given me friends like these people. I also like the idea that we are able to have fun together without letting alcohol enter our systems. Although we do get high on life, and between you and me, I think that it's the best type of high.

More dinners to come, friends! I love you guys forever!

Kaye xxx

Friday, no classes

If you guys have read my previous blog post then by now I'm sure that you know how bad I am with time management. HAHAHAH. It's been more than a week since our trip to Bataan but still I haven't posted anything about it except for that one picture down there. I'm terribly sorry but I swear I'll do my best to blog about it soon.... I just don't know when. Stay tuned! HAHAHA

Well, I've been very very very busy with schoolwork lately now that I'm a college junior. Less than 2 years then hopefully I'll be off to med school!! Woohoo, wish me luck guys. And I wish all of you guys the same, too! But can I just share how difficult it is to be a student? There are times when my brain just completely shuts down and all it makes me want to do is play my ukulele, read something and sleep. 

I've been reading a lot lately (and spending a LOT also, of course...books aren't cheap) and there's this certain trilogy that has changed a bit of perception about the world and it's made me feel more appreciative about everything I have and don't have but I don't want to share it with you guys yet 'cause I want all of you to guess. I think I know what you're thinking and let me tell you now that... IT'S NOT 50 SHADES OF GREY! Porket trilogy..kayo ha. Just kidding hihi.

Also, I've been watching a lot of series and my favorite one has got to be Sherlock!!! I love Benedict Cumberbatch!!! You guys should watch it especially if you're into crime and detective stories. It's the most wonderful thing that has every happened to my series life....so far.

So.... That's all I can say for now. I've got tons to do and stuff to write!

Kaye xxx

Sneak Peek

I miss blogging so bad. Huhuhu, ever since junior year started I've been very busy BUT I managed to have a quick weekend getaway with my family in Bataan. I'm gonna show you guys a picture for a sneak peak hihi. I might blog about our trip this coming weekend after my exams.

Here ya go!!  hihi guess where

Tata!!

Love,
Kaye

The Dream

July 5, 2013

My dream last night was so vivid. Emotions were everywhere - beautiful ones, and though some parts of it were weird, I'd really love it if it came true...well, parts of it.

It all started in school, I was with my friend Leean and she asked my help about shifting (which is weird HAHA) and so, I went with her from one building to another. After that we went to JSEC, stayed there for a while and a few minutes after I left her and went to SecWalk. While I was walking, I felt very conscious of how my nose looked since I had the colds (HAHAHAHA I'm amazed at how detailed my subconscious is). Then a guy followed and went to me, he was handing me tissue and said, "Hindi ka matutuwa dito". I didn't understand what he meant so I just walked away from his ashamed and offended and told him that I didn't need it. I continued to walk faster and got tissue from my bag. I ended up at Sec A and I don't know what happened but I accepted the guy's tissue, that's when I found out that it wasn't just tissue. A glass slide came along with it (yes the one used for microscopes) and it had a stained bacteria with a cover slip. I was about to grab it when I saw my hand and got shocked by the sight of blood all over it. That's when I realized that my nose was bleeding! (weird diba HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA)

I was still there in front of Escaler with guy who handed me the slide and the tissue when my ultimate crush arrived. He was looking at my face then to my hand before he stuttered, "B..Blo..Blood." His face looked so angelic, concerned and perfect as he looked intently at my bleeding nose that I lost my train of thought. I immediately tried to wipe the blood away. He came closer and told me that he was the one who asked the guy to give me the glass slide. He said that he got the bacteria from me and found out that it was probably the cause of why my nose was bleeding. He moved towards me, placed his hand on my shoulder before we sat down on the floor in front of the door of Escaler. He told me that that kind of bacteria could be deadly if its "biological clock" hadn't stopped. I was fortunate enough to have caught the not-so-deadly one. Then when the thought of what could have happened finally came over me I said, "Omg, what if hindi nag-stop? I could have died.", he looked at me and answered lovingly, "Mamamatay ako pag hindi nag-stop" and held me. I almost cried (in my sleep...well I don't exactly know but that's how I felt).

We rested our backs on the door as I leaned on to his shoulder. He held my cheek with his firm yet gentle hands and I felt sage and warm beside him. I smiled and saw how perfect the moment was when I thought to myself, "I'll text Mia later".

That's when I woke up.

I stayed up a few more minutes after, gathering every detail of a dream that's worth remembering forever.

On the way home

So here we are along C-5 road (I think) , I'm seated at the back of our car quietly eating my cheeseburger as I watch my lolo scowl in anger seeing his burger near the gas pedal. It's such a funny thought to imagine for you guys but it's actually quite scary. Seeing your grandfather nibble on his burger while driving as he stomps for the break immediately because the car in front of us stopped. I'm not a big fan of driving, most especially FAST driving and I don't know why.

Well, I'm typing this on my Blackberry 'cause I usually am more creative spontaneously especially inside a moving vehicle like our dear ol' car. Oops, there's goes our speed again, we just overtook a brightly colored jeepney and to be exact it’s color green and yellow. We just turned right so I guess we're passing by floodway again. The men in my family loves passing here (well, the older men in my family rather). What a sight it is here, I see children playing on the streets....I envy them sometimes though, 'cause I never had the chance to do that. I was a bit of an introvert bordering autistic when I was younger.

Gosh, I hate swerving and fast driving together!!! That ruined my train of thought. Why can't just people be patient while they're driving? Geez. Going back.... I see a lot of campaign posters, motorcycles, small stores and tones of topless men with their baggy basketball shorts and hats. Ah, the sights I see each time I go home!

Aww, how cute! My grandparents are eating their chocolate sundaes.....and now I see topless man again. Isn't there like a law for that now? I think there is already. Oh, I see people playing street billiards that's nice.

Grr, I'm getting dizzy now. I should stop this. I have motion sickness and I think the light from my phone is making me feel sick.

After a few minutes.....

Okay, I got bored, I'm continuing this. I wasn't able to finish my burger. I'll save that for my dad later, I just bought it for the Iron Man poster. HAHAHAHA. We're still in floodway and my grandmother's talking about that Ryzza kid. Who is that girl anyway? I've been hearing tons of stories about her. I guess I need to catch up on social stuff. Geez a car just stopped in front of us so my lolo had to step on the breaks again, and now we're picking up speed.

There's a guy riding the bicycle beside us. He's thin and average-looking, I think he's nice but I'm worried for him. Riding a bicycle on a road where so many cars with irresponsible drivers are passing is dangerous. He can easily get knocked off for Pete's sake. God he just stepped on the breaks again! What does a woman have to do to get one heck of a peaceful ride over here?

Now, there's heavy traffic and there are about 14 motorcycles in front of us waiting for their kill, just kidding, they're just waiting for the green light. It's a good thing that at least half of them are wearing their helmets. I know it's a bit unreasonable but I see motorcycles as two-wheeled death traps. The drivers just look so vulnerable. Maybe I'm saying this 'cause I've seen a dead person near Marikina lying on the ground with his motorcycle.

Okay, I'm very dizzy. Bye.

Generation Switch

I love my mom and I love spending my free days with her and my whole family. During the Holy Week we went to BGC for IHOP but the line was so long that's why we ended up Seattle's Best Coffee which is still okay but my brother and I were really ready for the pancakes...but, oh well, if it's meant to be it would be. After that, we headed to Razon's for some halo-halo (they have the best halo-halo ever!) because we are a halo-halo loving family. Anyhoo, before we left, my mom and I dressed up as each other as seen in the picture below. HAHAHAHA  She wore a red cardigan over a white tank top, paired with khaki shorts and earth-tone sneakers. Exactly how I would wear it. HAHAHAHA As for me, I wore something that I think she wore during her teenage years - a red and white striped polo tucked in my DIY high-waisted pants paired with my white flats. late 70s and early 80s maybe? =)) What about you? Have you guys tried dressing up with your moms, too? :-) Summer vacation's about to end! Better make the most out of it! Hehehehehe  Kaye x

To Infinity and Beyond

Fashion posts are piling up in my drafts folder and the OC within me is forcing me to clear them all out so here I am, typing this. 
During my finals week, I've been very distracted by these online shops in Instagram because they were selling almost all the clothes that I've been looking for. I've been trying to find galaxy print dresses for months and when I saw one, I immediately bought it (well, of course, I negotiated with the seller first and then I deposited the money). I was really excited to see and wear it but unfortunately, when I deposited money in the bank, it was already the last day of shipping because they are closed on Holy Week. I had to wait for 1 week for it to arrive but the wait was worth it.
What I love about buying online is that it's hassle-free. No need walk long distances of waste gas and energy to look for the dress and by just one click of the button, you can easily look for the type of clothes that you want. I prefer buying clothes in Instagram 'cause I find it easier to browse there. When I was looking through different online stores, I stumbled upon a store named "Naleigh Shop" and that's where I found this galaxy dress. It was on sale (50% off) and they ship for free! 
Galaxy print dress: Naleigh Shop
It's a very simple piece but quite striking - just the way I like it. I bought it only for 400 bucks!

I love the fabric that was used for this dress but my favorite part of it is the skirt part because it's very flowy! HAHAHAAH I'm into the flowy type of dresses. =))

Here's how I look like without my glasses! Not used to seeing myself without them though, I look weird. Do you agree? Well, that's all for now! :-)
Naleigh Shop also has a Facebook page! Try buying from them, they sell really nice stuff! Follow them on Instagram also. :-) Thanks, guys!
THANK YOU, NALEIGH SHOP!
Kaye xx

Martha, My dear

I PASSED MY ORGANIC CHEMISTRY SUBJECT. 
And as a reward for all my hardwork, my lola bought me my ultimate wish for this year hihihihi - a ukulele!!!! I've been dying to have one ever since February and finally I have it! I'm so lucky to have her as my grandmother (she spoils me a lot, I really have this feeling that I'm her favorite grandchild but I don't wanna assume HAHAHAHA). 
As usual since I like naming all my stuff, I named this one Martha. I got it from the Beatles' song "Martha, My Dear". 

I'm sorry I posted this just now but I got my ukulele last last week during the holy week. I've been playing it since then, it's quite and easy and fun to play. It's cheap, too! I bought for only 850 bucks from Powerplay in Sta. Lucia East Grandmall. You guys should try it, you won't regret buying one I swear!
Kaye x

Over the years

1. We were young and in-love but it wasn't really serious. Yes at first, I thought it was but it really is just puppy love. I loved you and I have to admit that, but you loved me for a different reason and that's what I didn't like about it. Thank you though for giving me a chance to get to know you even if you treated me like a piece of shit. Don't worry, I've already forgiven you and I don't keep grudges. I'm just not the type of person to do that. Thanks for all the memories, I can't say that I had a great time while I was with you but thank you.    I'm sorry I hurt you in the end, but I couldn't take it any more. It wasn't worth it, I just had to give us up.

2. Ours was very short that I can't even remember that we had it. You were very nice and you taught me a very valuable lesson in life. There was this one time that you told me to not hate the person, but to hate the thing that he/she has done instead and I made sure to keep that in mind up to this day. Thank you for teaching me to hate less and to understand more. I can't really say that I loved you but I know that I respected you. I don't know, I think we owe what we had to peer pressure and I'm not ashamed of saying that 'cause this is the real life, and even the most absurd things can happen. I'm sorry for being unfaithful when you went to Thailand, I just couldn't feel you and I realized that I didn't deserve your love. I'm sorry I had to break us up as soon as you arrived here in the Philippines, I learned a lot from you though and for that I thank you.

3. I'm so happy I met you, and I'm even happier that we're still friends. You were one of the bests and one of the people I loved the most. My mom had always liked you (even though she hasn't said it out loud I know she did). I loved you for no reason, you loved me for no reason either and that was the best part of what we had. I still remember those petty conversations that we had and they were very great memories. You're super smart yet still humble, you're understanding, you're caring - everything a girl could ever ask for. It's just sad that our relationship had to end but I do believe that some people have to break up in order for them to both grow and mature, I think that's what happened to us. Gosh, I can't even remember how we broke up. HAHAHA We've had our laughs and they are laughs that I'll be keeping forever. Thank you for being a lover but I thank you more for being a friend. I'm glad that we're still friends up to now knowing that we're finally both in our dream school. I still love you though, I think, but in a different way now. See you around and stay happy.

4. You ruined my life. I hated almost every single day that I was with you. I loved it at the start 'cause you were different, you were nice and you treated me well. You weren't even worthy to replace him but still I fell for it. You had one of my best friends to help you, she trusted you so I did, too but then you weren't the person we thought you were. You're obsessive, possessive in the most ridiculous way and we all hated it. You bastardized me in all ways possible but still I forgave you 'cause I'm not the type of person who doesn't forgive. Don't worry, I'm okay now and it's fine with me if you'd like to be friends. All I hope is that you learned something from what happened. Stop being so damned egoistic, nobody likes that. I have to admit I did love you and I'm sorry to say this but loving you was one of the biggest mistakes I've made in my life so far. I'm not a pessimist so I still try to see the good things about our thing. I learned that I was worth something, and that I should love myself too. I learned that I had the right to be respected and I had the right to choose. I also learned that it's not worth sacrificing something important for love unless you're sure that it's true. I learned not to be stupid. I learned a lot from you though but I loathe our relationship, well at least it was worth all the knowledge. I'm glad you hurt me a lot, 'cause I wouldn't realize that I do not deserve someone like you if you hadn't. Everything happens for a reason, and I'm proud to say that I've found that reason.

5. I don't know if our love was special but I'm quite sure that half of it was built on lies (well, the latter part is). I'm sorry for making you feel like a rebound. I'm sorry for lying about a lot of things but you lied, too. You made me believe that you didn't love her anymore but I always knew you did somehow. I loved you, I swear and I was serious. It was fun at the start but then the lies kept coming out and we had to fight a lot. What we had was built on sand and we both knew that it wasn't meant to last. When I answered you, I told you that I don't know if  we'll be together forever but I promised that our love would last and it did. I'm glad we kept our promises. You know a lot of things about me that not a lot of people know and I hope you keep them as if they were your own for I have kept yours as if they were mine. We don't talk now but I hope we can get back to speaking terms again, I know we've had our fair share of mistakes, I just hope that we can just forget all about them. I've forgiven you and all of it is nothing to me now. I hope you've managed forgive me, too. The best of luck for the both of you, not all people get second chances and I hope you both take care of what you have. Thanks for everything, I appreciate it.

6. Thank you for making me feel special. You were one of the people I loved the most but you're more than what I deserved. Thank you for taking time to know more about me and for sticking up for me in times of distress. I couldn't ask for more than the love you've given me and I can say that you really did love me; only you shared your love for me with someone else. Even if you denied it to me numerous times, I could feel it and I always knew that you still loved her. She was your "one that got away" and I'm sorry for only understanding it now. I should have set you free as soon as possible to save both of us from the hurt but I was selfish, I wanted you to be mine and mine alone even if I knew that it was impossible. I'm sorry for not being enough for you but I did do my best. I told my parents about our relationship and it was the only time that I had been brave enough to tell them, that's 'cause you made me feel brave. I've always felt stronger when I was with you, I felt like I can do anything. You made me feel beautiful in the simplest of ways but still respected me and that's what I loved about you. You're caring, understanding and funny and you made me happy every single day. I'll forever cherish the days that I'd spent with you. Yes, it hurt me the first few weeks or even months of our breakup but it was worth it and I know I did the right thing not just for the you but for the both of us. I needed time to move on anyway and I knew that you had to get her back. You hurt me a lot but you made me stronger still. Thank you for everything especially for appreciating even the smallest of things that I do for you. I love you. Always have, always will.

7. Love is not real I said to myself over the past months and somehow I managed to believe it - that was until  met you. You made me feel that love was real again but then you took it away from me immediately. I can't really call you selfish 'cause I know that you didn't mean to hurt me. I know you had to do it for our own sake but we could have at least tried. Alright, I can't blame you for not wanting to try 'cause I know you were only saving us of the hurt but it still did bite.....a bit. It pierced me like a knife seeing and feeling you drift apart from me each day. Everything happened so fast, it felt as if I was shot by a gun straight through the heart but I had to accept it - that was our fate, I was lucky enough to have known that you liked me too. It's my fault 'cause I expected a lot from you and I'm sorry. I had to move on 'cause you already started way ahead of me. It's funny 'cause you managed to forget me so fast, and I'm still here stuck on the same spot where you left me. I thank you for all the memories though, from the donuts to  the late night food sessions - all of it. Thank you. I love you and I think I still do but still some people are meant to fall in love with each other but are not meant to be together (as cliche as it may sound). I sure hope you're happy with what you have now.

Kaye x

Touch of the 50s and a bit of the 60s

Photo credits to Jayson Ferrer.
And I'm a day late for an update. HAHAHAHAHA! Well, better late than never right? Anyhoo, can I just say how much I love buying clothes online. It's so easy and there's not much of a hassle because you just search for the name of the clothes that you want, pay for it and voila! They'll deliver it to you, the only catch is that you have to wait for it to arrive but it doesn't matter. 
So, to cut the crap, I was searching online last week for 50s and 60s inspired clothing  and I saw that there were tons of stores selling "skater skirts". I'm not much of a fashion geek so I had no idea what skater skirts were so I searched it up on Google. There's this article and it says there that a skater skirt is inspired by the 50s style circle skirt, the difference is that the former is a bit shorter. I knew what a circle skirt was and I had one of those but I didn't know that I had skater skirts too like the one shown below. 

I've had this skirt for quite a long time now and I've always called it a circle skirt. I never paid much attention to it so I rarely wore it.  Little did I know that it was 50s-inspired. So on that same day, I searched it inside the landfill I call a closet and decided to wear it the next day for church. 

Now, the picture below is an example of a circle skirt. It's length is quite known to be just below the knee or a few inches above the knee. Shorter than that, it's already considered a skater skirt. Circle skirts and skater skirts are very flowy that even a slight gush of wind is able to blow it away so be careful when wearing them. HAHAHAHA I used this picture as an inspiration for my outfit.

Sleeves plus a circle skirt paired with black heels that had 1 to 1 1/2 inch heels.

Knitted long-sleeved top: Vintage Store
Here, I wore one of my favorite tops - a navy blue long-sleeved knitted top that I bought for a very cheap price from my ever-trusted vintage store in Katipunan. Would you believe that I got that for only 30 bucks?
Skater skirt: Grass Clothing Inc. Then I paired it with my blue and white striped skater skirt (still not used to calling it a skater skirt, it's still a circle skirt for me HAHAHAHA). I was so happy because it matched the color of my top. They were meant to be worn together.... jk. No, I'm not kidding. 
Pastel-colored sandals: Parisian To give it a more casual 60s look, I wore my pastel-colored sandals instead of wearing black pumps. I didn't want to look like a vintage nightmare..plus, the black heels won't look good on this outfit anyway. I got these sandals as a gift from my lolo for my birthday. My nail polish doesn't really match the color of the flats....so don't mind it. HAHAHAHA Vintage sling bag: Jellybean
I rarely wear bags and you can see that from my other pictures, but this time I had to since I had a lot of stuff to bring and I didn't have any pockets. I used my sling bag to preserve that vintage look of my outfit. I really enjoyed wearing this outfit and I'm sure you guys will love it too if you try it. It's easy to pull off since it looks casual enough to wear almost anywhere. :-)