Saturday, June 18, 2016

5: After Every Fight

May 9, 2016

If ever you ask me how I feel right now (and during every fight we have), I would answer “unwanted”. I feel disregarded, bypassed, and unneeded. I feel as if I don’t matter. I feel irrelevant and unimportant.

 But maybe, just maybe, it’s not like that. I hope it’s not.

To you.

May 4, 2016

To you.

I’ve been spending so many hours studying alone lately that I’ve gone tired of reading all these exam reviewers. Now I’m back here… Lately, I am happy of everything that is going on between us. Sometimes I get scared that we’re TOO happy because something bad always happens when things are “too much” as old people say. I’ve never actually done this for quite a while and it feels refreshing being able to do something not related to medicine. This time, maybe… I’ll write about us, or mostly about you.

You are probably the best thing that has ever happened to me. I know that I don’t say or show it that much and I wish that I was more vocal and upfront about my feelings for you, but unfortunately, I’m not that good with it. You make me feel loved in ways I can’t even imagine and for that I’m thankful. Thank you for all the things that you do for me; from visiting me to bringing/buying me food. Thank you for believing in me during days when I felt like I wasn’t enough. Thank you for being the wave of assurance in my sea of doubts.

You are perhaps my favourite person in this crazy world and I’ve got to say that I’m very lucky and blessed to have you in my life. I love you not just for the good things in you. I love you and everything about you and I wouldn't trade you for anything or anyone else. Thank you for being strong for me during my bad days. Thank you for understanding and for always being a ready to listen to my endless rants and for never judging me. You are my best friend and the love of my life. How did I get so lucky?  I love you and words aren’t even enough to show you how much I do. “I love you, remember, they cannot take it.”