November 13, 2014
I sat there beside you, quietly
Refusing to speak
I was hurting as we sat side by side
our arms touching, our arms never holding
I didn't want to tell you
Tears would definitely fall if i did
So I didn't
You were already forgiven
I sat there beside you, quietly
Listening to the purring of the engine
You pulled my arm towards you and reached for my hand
Your fingers slowly interlocking with mine
Your hand, your fingers
They felt like home; I missed it
I wanted to cry
So I sat there beside you, quietly
Stared at the window as we passed by the streets full of lights
They were twinkling, inviting, haunting
Nostalgic
I squeezed your hand, resisting the urge to tell you I love you
I succeeded, but I wasn't happy
But with the pain I felt, I had to do it, I couldn't tell you
As I sat there beside you, quietly
I closed my eyes
Drowned myself in your scent
Trying to remember the days when we were okay
And as I did
I felt okay, we were okay
So I leaned my head on your shoulder
You held my hand tighter
The kiss on the forehead just makes everything better
