Over the years

1. We were young and in-love but it wasn't really serious. Yes at first, I thought it was but it really is just puppy love. I loved you and I have to admit that, but you loved me for a different reason and that's what I didn't like about it. Thank you though for giving me a chance to get to know you even if you treated me like a piece of shit. Don't worry, I've already forgiven you and I don't keep grudges. I'm just not the type of person to do that. Thanks for all the memories, I can't say that I had a great time while I was with you but thank you.    I'm sorry I hurt you in the end, but I couldn't take it any more. It wasn't worth it, I just had to give us up.

2. Ours was very short that I can't even remember that we had it. You were very nice and you taught me a very valuable lesson in life. There was this one time that you told me to not hate the person, but to hate the thing that he/she has done instead and I made sure to keep that in mind up to this day. Thank you for teaching me to hate less and to understand more. I can't really say that I loved you but I know that I respected you. I don't know, I think we owe what we had to peer pressure and I'm not ashamed of saying that 'cause this is the real life, and even the most absurd things can happen. I'm sorry for being unfaithful when you went to Thailand, I just couldn't feel you and I realized that I didn't deserve your love. I'm sorry I had to break us up as soon as you arrived here in the Philippines, I learned a lot from you though and for that I thank you.

3. I'm so happy I met you, and I'm even happier that we're still friends. You were one of the bests and one of the people I loved the most. My mom had always liked you (even though she hasn't said it out loud I know she did). I loved you for no reason, you loved me for no reason either and that was the best part of what we had. I still remember those petty conversations that we had and they were very great memories. You're super smart yet still humble, you're understanding, you're caring - everything a girl could ever ask for. It's just sad that our relationship had to end but I do believe that some people have to break up in order for them to both grow and mature, I think that's what happened to us. Gosh, I can't even remember how we broke up. HAHAHA We've had our laughs and they are laughs that I'll be keeping forever. Thank you for being a lover but I thank you more for being a friend. I'm glad that we're still friends up to now knowing that we're finally both in our dream school. I still love you though, I think, but in a different way now. See you around and stay happy.

4. You ruined my life. I hated almost every single day that I was with you. I loved it at the start 'cause you were different, you were nice and you treated me well. You weren't even worthy to replace him but still I fell for it. You had one of my best friends to help you, she trusted you so I did, too but then you weren't the person we thought you were. You're obsessive, possessive in the most ridiculous way and we all hated it. You bastardized me in all ways possible but still I forgave you 'cause I'm not the type of person who doesn't forgive. Don't worry, I'm okay now and it's fine with me if you'd like to be friends. All I hope is that you learned something from what happened. Stop being so damned egoistic, nobody likes that. I have to admit I did love you and I'm sorry to say this but loving you was one of the biggest mistakes I've made in my life so far. I'm not a pessimist so I still try to see the good things about our thing. I learned that I was worth something, and that I should love myself too. I learned that I had the right to be respected and I had the right to choose. I also learned that it's not worth sacrificing something important for love unless you're sure that it's true. I learned not to be stupid. I learned a lot from you though but I loathe our relationship, well at least it was worth all the knowledge. I'm glad you hurt me a lot, 'cause I wouldn't realize that I do not deserve someone like you if you hadn't. Everything happens for a reason, and I'm proud to say that I've found that reason.

5. I don't know if our love was special but I'm quite sure that half of it was built on lies (well, the latter part is). I'm sorry for making you feel like a rebound. I'm sorry for lying about a lot of things but you lied, too. You made me believe that you didn't love her anymore but I always knew you did somehow. I loved you, I swear and I was serious. It was fun at the start but then the lies kept coming out and we had to fight a lot. What we had was built on sand and we both knew that it wasn't meant to last. When I answered you, I told you that I don't know if  we'll be together forever but I promised that our love would last and it did. I'm glad we kept our promises. You know a lot of things about me that not a lot of people know and I hope you keep them as if they were your own for I have kept yours as if they were mine. We don't talk now but I hope we can get back to speaking terms again, I know we've had our fair share of mistakes, I just hope that we can just forget all about them. I've forgiven you and all of it is nothing to me now. I hope you've managed forgive me, too. The best of luck for the both of you, not all people get second chances and I hope you both take care of what you have. Thanks for everything, I appreciate it.

6. Thank you for making me feel special. You were one of the people I loved the most but you're more than what I deserved. Thank you for taking time to know more about me and for sticking up for me in times of distress. I couldn't ask for more than the love you've given me and I can say that you really did love me; only you shared your love for me with someone else. Even if you denied it to me numerous times, I could feel it and I always knew that you still loved her. She was your "one that got away" and I'm sorry for only understanding it now. I should have set you free as soon as possible to save both of us from the hurt but I was selfish, I wanted you to be mine and mine alone even if I knew that it was impossible. I'm sorry for not being enough for you but I did do my best. I told my parents about our relationship and it was the only time that I had been brave enough to tell them, that's 'cause you made me feel brave. I've always felt stronger when I was with you, I felt like I can do anything. You made me feel beautiful in the simplest of ways but still respected me and that's what I loved about you. You're caring, understanding and funny and you made me happy every single day. I'll forever cherish the days that I'd spent with you. Yes, it hurt me the first few weeks or even months of our breakup but it was worth it and I know I did the right thing not just for the you but for the both of us. I needed time to move on anyway and I knew that you had to get her back. You hurt me a lot but you made me stronger still. Thank you for everything especially for appreciating even the smallest of things that I do for you. I love you. Always have, always will.

7. Love is not real I said to myself over the past months and somehow I managed to believe it - that was until  met you. You made me feel that love was real again but then you took it away from me immediately. I can't really call you selfish 'cause I know that you didn't mean to hurt me. I know you had to do it for our own sake but we could have at least tried. Alright, I can't blame you for not wanting to try 'cause I know you were only saving us of the hurt but it still did bite.....a bit. It pierced me like a knife seeing and feeling you drift apart from me each day. Everything happened so fast, it felt as if I was shot by a gun straight through the heart but I had to accept it - that was our fate, I was lucky enough to have known that you liked me too. It's my fault 'cause I expected a lot from you and I'm sorry. I had to move on 'cause you already started way ahead of me. It's funny 'cause you managed to forget me so fast, and I'm still here stuck on the same spot where you left me. I thank you for all the memories though, from the donuts to  the late night food sessions - all of it. Thank you. I love you and I think I still do but still some people are meant to fall in love with each other but are not meant to be together (as cliche as it may sound). I sure hope you're happy with what you have now.

Kaye x