I should have...

The unshed tears trapped inside me,
penetrating , forcing their way out.
But.. they just couldn't.
Can they really not pour out?
Or is it just me holding them back?
I guess both.

Eight months. They have been deprived from
their sole purpose for eight long months..
To shed.

I don't quite understand this emotion,
My feelings keep contradicting each other.
I don't know what to feel anymore.
Something's not right
In fact, nothing has been right ever since..
Ever since it came in the night and stole you away from me.
But I just let it go away with you.

I was caught off-guard

All because my mind was clouded with my pride.
I tried again and again, but I needed to hold..
Hold on the words I've said.
Regret.