I have a lot of blogs, I actually have four blogs right now and this little blogspot baby is the latest one. Now, you may be thinking why I have a lot of blogs when I only need one, it's basically this.. Even though my previous blogs were good blogs, I consider them as my "secret diary" where all my evilness is poured out, and since most of friends didn't have blogs when I was in high school, they were all unaware of what goes on inside my head.
When I entered college (I won't tell you where I study 'cause I'm trying to be as anonymous as I can but I'm not good in hiding things) I've met a lot of people who have blogs. Most of my blockmates in fact have blogs so.. I don't know, for me I think it's just kind of rude if you don't follow them when they follow you, so I ended up following all of them (nd I'm not sayibg this in a negative way, fyi). They had access to my deepest darkest secrets (they're not that dark, I swear) and I didn't actually know if I was okay with that then. But now, I realized that I lost a part of my life. I couldn't blog about what I really want to blog about 'cause I'm afraid that they might see me differently. My oh-so-honest-about-what-I-truly-feel blog was now filtered; the posts and the words used are not really the "posts and words" that I want to say and truly feel.
One more problem with this is that my grammar isn't always correct, I have to admit that one and that's a big deal if you're studying in my school. Most of the time I feel ashamed of telling people where I'm currently studying 'cause I don't want them to expect something that I'm not. I'm not as good as all the students in my school, and yet we're all stereotyped to be excellent in everything and I'm pretty sure that I'm not excellent in everything.
Okay wait, we're drifting off....
So going back.. My main point of making a new blog is basically because I want a place where I can say the stuff I want without being judged by anyone. I want to stop hiding what I really feel 'cause it sucks and I'm not the type of person who can just hold everything in without telling anyone. Some of you might say that that's a bad thing but that's just the way I am. I'm very open when it comes to my feelings and my problems and I don't think there's anything wrong with that. I'm just being myself and that's why I started a new blog.
So there.. Hi, I'm Kaye but that's not really my name 'cause as I have said I'm trying to be anonymous as possible. Please feel free to tell me anything, I'm a very open person although I have to be honest that I'm a hater but I love more. Promise. :)
Plus, I'm happy most of the time and I'd be more than happy to hear from you guys. Heeheee.
K x
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